What the hell dude...

Its 4:38am and I can't sleep. I've tried to sleep but have only been successful at waking up about 4 times already. I have no idea why I came out to the mac and write a blog this early in the morning.

At least I have some Pedro the Lion to keep me company.

I should probably write more on this before it starts to not be cool anymore. Before something new comes out. Maybe the next thing will be a program that reads exactly what your thinking. Captures it and posts it on the interweb! Seems kinda scary to think about. Mine would be about me asking the same hundred questions.

"Whens the next tattoo?"
"What is she doing right now?"
"Does she even think about me?"
"What am I going to eat in the next 5 mins?"
"What do I want to do tonight?"
"What is she doing tonight?"

I guess a lot of the questions are still about the same girl that I've been pining over for years now. Can't just leave it at that. No matter how hard I try I can't stop thinking about her.

Go ahead. You can say it. I already know I'm an idiot. But heres how I look at it. I'll try to break it down for you.

*I've liked her ever since we met, when she started dating a friend of mine and I didn't think that she had any interest in me. (Even though later on I found out that she did)

*After getting divorced from my wife, she was the first person I thought of to want to be with. (I never thought of other girls when I was married. lets get that straight)

*A year ago after finally telling her how I felt about her (finally) I was walking on clouds. That was the day of Heffers and Gray's wedding. Man that could have been the happiest days of my life. No joke.

Theres more but I don't want to get all into it. What do you think? I've had more than enough people tell me to drop it. Get over it. Move on.

Blah. Blah. Blah...

I guess its just too hard for me to. Every time a band comes on, a romantic movie, and sometimes when I see something she might like I think about her.

Like I said I'm an idiot.

You know I didn't plan on writing about her. Sorry. Lets change the subject shall we.

Ummm shoot, I had some really cool things to talk about, but now I think about them and they just sound dumb. Haha. Guess waking up my brain was working over time. Plus a lack of sleep might be what makes my mind scream at me to come and write these things down. I used to keep a notepad by me when I went to sleep. That way when I would wake up I could write the things down and come back to them again.

OK. I promise that the next post that I do will be cheerful. Maybe some pictures of the finished tattoos that I've had since the last pictures I took.

Keep it real. Be honest.

Corre