From my mouth to the paper... or er... online

I haven't talked on this for awhile. Sorry if you wait to
hear something and I don't get on very much.
Lets see... where am I at?...

Working like usual. I wish the economy was better cause
I would be out there searching for something with better
pay thats for sure. I don't know if many of you know but
I've been living at Aaron's pop's house. its pretty chill here,
plus he is never home and when he is he is working on papers.
I started color on my chest almost two weeks ago.
I go in May 4th and hope to be done with it.
I'm already thinking of what I want next. I told Darcy that
I won't be showing her the chest one all colored. Or any other
ones for that matter. I'm thinking of getting anchors on my
fore arms. On the other side of the other tattoos. One will say
Hope, and the other Faith. Then I can tell people that I named
my arms Hope and Faith... haha...

Since talking to Darcy I've been seeing some changes, and I hope
others have also. I've been praying more. A lot more actually.
I keep a note pad by my bed with my daily prayers written down.
I like it. I can't wait to actually look back on it in a year from now to see
what has changed. Hopefully a lot. God willing. A lot of what I pray
for is guidance and patience. I feel completely awed by how God has
allowed me to see the difference in my life as of late. I've been happy.
Really happy. I'm seeing God's beauty in everything.

I've decided to grow my beard and hair out for a year... I know scary huh?
I'll be that guy on a bike who scares little children. haha. I hope not.
I know that growing my hair out will be the toughest for me. Beard not so
much. I can trim the mustache and under lip pretty easy so it doesn't look
too bad. Hair is already losing the black that I put over the lighter color.
And I think it might be dying... i don't know though, I'm not a hair
specialist.

Nich, Jacob, Jeffrey and I are gonna start a band. Hoping to be a folk/punk
sound. I've got to write lyrics ASAP, but now I only really write about my
current relationship status... haha. I really am super seriously liking Darcy
a lot. She is great. I wish you guys knew her.

Well thats a lot from me. Hope you guys enjoyed that as much as I did writing it...
ok I didn't enjoy it that much.

Pray for me. If you'd like me to pray for you then send me a message and I will
totally pray for you if I'm not already doing so.

Aight. peace out homies and home girls.

Corre

This came on my radio on the way to work.

All my life,
I tried so hard,
but I was afraid to walk alone,
Midnight came when we were kids,
You were afraid so I walked with you,
Singing songs till the night was almost gone,
Holding hands,
Only letting go when you were nearly home.

Side by side,
We face the sun,
The anchor of all men in love,
You will be the only one,
When everything is said and done,
In the morning I'll be gone.

Life is what it makes of you,
So don't be afraid to walk alone,
Baby scream when they are bored,
So I'm not afraid of passing on,
Sing me songs,
For my time has almost come,
Hold me close,
And I'll let you know when I am nearly home,

Side by side,
We face the sun,
The anchor of all men in love,
You will be the only one,
When everything is said and done,
In the morning I'll be gone

The New frontiers - Passing on

I love it.

If I grew my beard out like this...

Would you guys still talk to me again?

I kinda like it... Well not the emo picture,
but the beard.

Hahahahahahahaha

So there you have them...

Not really written about anyone...
well maybe the last one... but who cares right?

If things could be easier you think I would be
happier? Probably not. I would still be in a
funk. No end to the loneliness around the corner.
I leave you with this.


I can give my heart to everyone I see,
but how many pieces could I get in return?

Thats how I freaking feel sometimes.

P.S. I know what your thinking... well some of you anyways...
I know God is here for me. I pray to him before I fall asleep at
night. I ask him to fill the void and repair my heart. Sometimes the
scent, touch/embrace, and love of another is what I feel like I'm missing.

If I could freeze my heart I would.
Turn into a Zombie I would.
Be a robot? Hell yeah!
I can't do or be any of those things.

I smelled her hair, a mixture of smoke,
hairspray and fresh shampoo. It brought up
feelings of warmth and it felt just right.
Like a day filled with dark clouds and
a light sprinkling of rain. I held her closer
to me just in case I woke up to find her
not really here at all. Just a dream inside
a dream. But it turned out to be real and
she felt so right in my arms. So right.
She asked me what I wanted?
I whispered to her nothing and everything.

Nothing and everything

Why do I second guess the things that
you say? I just told me the truth and
I twisted it into something else.
Something more sinister.
Something more hazardous.
Something so gawdawful it hurts
every fiber of my being.
Crush my heart.

Last night as you left my house I stood
out on the sidewalk and listened. It was
1230 am. No cars in sight. Just the street
lights, rustling of leaves, the moon, and me...
the sound of a train was the only thing I could
hear in the distance.

It was peaceful and all I could think of was am
I doing the right thing? Is this the way things
should be? I'm happy where I'm at, but why
do I ask these questions?

There's a reason that your in my life. There's a
reason we care for each other. So why the
stupid questions? Why the uncertainty? Its the
way of human nature. Its my flaws shining
through my plate of armor. Flaws that cannot
break me or break us. I will stand strong as long
as God's by my side. He is on our side.
Good or bad. He's always got my back.